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KomaedassKomaedass3 mese/i fa
Just remembering the passion I used to have for anime.

I remember in gr.6 and 7 when each night I would binge watch an entire series, getting barely any sleep. It's so long ago now.

Anime was part of my childhood, I grew up with it since my mom is Japanese. I remember watching shows with her and my step dad, watching Studio Ghibli films uncountable times.

I kind of regret that I got obsessed. I feel like the 3-4 years of being deeply invested in anime burnt me out. I feel as if I can't appreciate it anymore. Of course I still love Studio Ghibli films, and I will always love and appreciate Haikyuu (and Bungou Stray Dogs), but I can't seem to watch anime anymore. It's been over 2 years since I last watched anime and now I have some "streak" I need to keep up where I don't watch anything. A new Haikyuu season, a new Bungou Stray Dogs season..but still I just never watched anything.

I don't know where I'm going with this, it's just a night time ramble. My room is still filled with merch. My posters are mostly down, but to my right is a Tokyo Ghoul poster. Beside me is a little pillow with Haikyuu characters. If I look up from my computer I see my desk and a shelf, both with figures on them. I see a Yuri on Ice poster on my wall. I look at the side of my bookshelf and there are 2 Danganronpa posters. Right beside my leg is a Haikyuu pencil case.

It feels weird to say I'm over it. I have been for a long time, I just don't know what to do with all this stuff. Part of me wants to sell it, part of me is attached to all these things and the memories they hold. And I'm just too lazy to sell posters and keychains an wall scrolls and folders. A lot of these things have never even been opened. I don't know what I'm doing.

Self isolation really throws you into your thoughts doesn't it?

Good night :)
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Even though this site is about collecting goods, and this might be an unpopular opinion, but I think it's okay for you to move on! Sure, you might keep the merchandise for memories sake but if it's mentally bogging you down, I think it's time to throw in the towel.

We all grow up and our preferences change but that's okay!! Keep the good memories and forget about the angst you have yourself about keeping these stuff. If anime nowadays doesn't excite you, then it'll be liberating for you to free up your space and life from it.
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darkfader ⱠØⱠł₵Ø₦
I seem to be slowing down too.
But because I sometimes don't know what to watch and put up anime with cows and horses. Gotta download some instead of just streaming.
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You may find you recover from your burnout one day. About 10 years ago I got mega-obsessed with Hetalia, to the point I needed to stop watching it. I started to get annoyed with the fandom as well. I haven't watched a single episode or read a single manga page probably since 2011 and there's at least 1 or 2 seasons I haven't watched. Just a few weeks ago when I was unpacking stuff, I flipped through the manga again, a volume I probably read over 10 times as a teen. I actually enjoyed reading it again and found myself feeling like I was catching up with an old friend. I'll never have the foaming-at-the-mouth zeal I had for it back then, but I think I can enjoy it casually now. In a few years, maybe you'll be able to watch anime again. I would also try watching older anime. That way you won't get burned out by any hype.
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Well, its not like you HAVE to be crazy over anime, comics, manga or movies etc. Just watch what you enjoy. The fact that you still can enjoy some anime productions does mean that it is not as if you lost your taste buds :D

Something that might help from my own personal experience. There was a time when I watched about 4 or 5 movies, mainly Hollywood, per week. After a little while, I found myself a bit tired with the content. So I started watching foreign movies. After a little while, I was bored of that too. Everything just seemed derivative, or just too hard to enjoy.

Then there were other things that took place at the time, and I didn't really get a chance to watch any movies for a few months. Even then, perhaps one or two, but nothing I watched seriously. After about a year or two later, I remember sitting down to watch a movie and I found myself actually enjoying it. I didn't have much time like before, so I would only get a chance to see a movie or two per week. I found that this rate kept things fresh. Since then, I must have added more than 100 titles to my collection.

Something that I came to realize is that moderation is important to keep the enjoyment. So while you do not find much enjoyment with anime now, just give it a break. Come back later after a few months (you may not need couple years like me haha), and then make a decision. You might also be able to decide what merch you want and what you do not want more clearly when you do that.
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